Mental overdrive

This one may be quite cliched to many.

Can anyone make it stop?
Nothing seems to work.
I run in circles,
Each turn I degrade further.

Every single emotion is one way,
Do unto others what
You want others to do unto you.
The most well postured lie.

The close ones try,
Why do they fail so?
Does no one know how?
Or am I shutting everyone out?

Cocktail of fear and doubt,
Leading to that emotional hailstorm.
When only I feel it's worth it,
Like a stubborn child who won't let go.

Why does it have to be this unfair?
Am I that bad a person?
Did I not give enough of myself?
I'd correct more mistakes if I knew them.

I refuse to be what everyone expects.
What feels right is who I am.
You can say what you like,
But one day the truth will be open.