What is it, that makes us regret things that felt so right at some point in our lives? Life seems to be one relentless crossroad. And these moments just trip you up to kingdom come.
Saying that people just change, that's just uncool right? I mean, how does that make you any different from all those other 900234907329812309 people around the world who blame someone else for these things? Screw that, how does that make you different from that one person who's probably at the centre of these sapping moments, and probably saying the same thing? Nope, uncool much.
Saying it was a mistake and you should have never gone through with some of the choices that you made along the way again doesn't solve shizz. There's nothing you can do about it then, is there? And "time heals everything" may be true, but that cliché can just go screw itself in times like these. Not living with and standing by yourself is like stabbing yourself to save the Universe and then going Hmmm, maybe I shouldn't have done that. Random analogy I know.
Taking the spiritual "you must not be attached to anything in the first place" is another way out. Not. I dunno how they do that. What is life, lived that way? Like Cola without the fizz. First you go saint, then you get all cozy about life being peaceful. Nope. Most of the world would prefer having the cake and eating it too.
Being let down by people around you is to be expected so often that these aren't meant to really surprise you any more. Yet, you still fall down that hole so many times. It all comes with taking that leap of faith with someone you assume you know everything about. Going by that, when and how will you ever know that for sure? Some people find it hard to do that even with family, more than they will admit. Doesn't really solve anything either, this outlook.
Acceptance. Of yourself, the choices you made, and the world around you. And this is not settling for less, just acceptance of realities. The rest is all just regressive.
And you know the worst part? You start doubting yourself when this happens. Things you were sure of, things you'd put your faith in ("things" sometimes being yourself) are just shaken into oblivion. You feel like you don't know what your purpose is, why you do anything. And in this life crisis type situation, when all realism kinduv dissolves, you will miss things. You will miss that time that you made those choices that you now doubt. Because they gave you that much joy for lack of a better word. And they should still have been doing that.
Why didn't they?
Saying that people just change, that's just uncool right? I mean, how does that make you any different from all those other 900234907329812309 people around the world who blame someone else for these things? Screw that, how does that make you different from that one person who's probably at the centre of these sapping moments, and probably saying the same thing? Nope, uncool much.
Saying it was a mistake and you should have never gone through with some of the choices that you made along the way again doesn't solve shizz. There's nothing you can do about it then, is there? And "time heals everything" may be true, but that cliché can just go screw itself in times like these. Not living with and standing by yourself is like stabbing yourself to save the Universe and then going Hmmm, maybe I shouldn't have done that. Random analogy I know.
Taking the spiritual "you must not be attached to anything in the first place" is another way out. Not. I dunno how they do that. What is life, lived that way? Like Cola without the fizz. First you go saint, then you get all cozy about life being peaceful. Nope. Most of the world would prefer having the cake and eating it too.
Being let down by people around you is to be expected so often that these aren't meant to really surprise you any more. Yet, you still fall down that hole so many times. It all comes with taking that leap of faith with someone you assume you know everything about. Going by that, when and how will you ever know that for sure? Some people find it hard to do that even with family, more than they will admit. Doesn't really solve anything either, this outlook.
Acceptance. Of yourself, the choices you made, and the world around you. And this is not settling for less, just acceptance of realities. The rest is all just regressive.
And you know the worst part? You start doubting yourself when this happens. Things you were sure of, things you'd put your faith in ("things" sometimes being yourself) are just shaken into oblivion. You feel like you don't know what your purpose is, why you do anything. And in this life crisis type situation, when all realism kinduv dissolves, you will miss things. You will miss that time that you made those choices that you now doubt. Because they gave you that much joy for lack of a better word. And they should still have been doing that.
Why didn't they?
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